Recently I have been in discussions with a wonderful group of women about manifesting. One idea was brought up that I found so interesting. Are we manifesting the right way? We talked about what we think about when we manifest. I had always thought about specific things. Like down to what a person or a home or what it would be like flying all over the world making appearances at book signings. Those were the thoughts in my head envisioning my deepest desires. Yet a question was put forth. What if we didn’t manifest actual objects that we wanted but the feelings those objects gave and represented?
This one question I have pondered for almost a month now. Let me give you the idea behind it. When I sit to manifest what finding what I believe true love is, I listed things like, would have a good career, a nice vehicle, he would see that I may need something and he would provide, because he didn’t want me to do without. He would want to make my life easier. He would provide the safety and stability that I long for. He would also show up. He would want to do things with me spend time with me go and travel and see the world. That is what I believed was the way to manifest him. Yes in a way it is, but the idea put forth isn’t the actions, it is the feelings.
The idea says okay you have in your mind the perfect guy for you, how does he make you FEEL? What if we dumped all the actions and just looked at the feelings? What are those feelings I long to have? This is where it becomes hard. Those feelings are difficult because my initial reaction is to say I want to feel loved. That is too wide of a net to cast. Because you can feel loved and also not feel safe. Love is a heart matter and you can love someone and not want to be with them. So narrow that love feeling down even more. What is it? It is the feeling that I have yet to experience so I am going to do my best here and talk about what I believe it is. I believe it is someone who makes you feel safe, not just physically but also mentally. Someone you can depend on being there for you, supporting your dreams, your desires, and your goals. The person who sees you having a bad day and is willing to do whatever it takes to make the day just a bit easier. They see you struggle and they do something about it. Even if it is running a hot bath and telling you, get in and relax. That is love. The desire to make someone’s life not so dang hard. Its knowing you come first. That is what I want to manifest. That feeling of someone always there for you.
What is the feeling of the new home? That feeling is really that of a successful career. Of making sound finical decisions and once again finding the stable life. I know from experience life isn’t always going to be easy. It will knock you down and kick you. You have to get up. You have to find the inner strength to rise and start again. So many people scream I don’t want to start over, yet only by being forced to do it, can you learn that it can be done. That is the feeling of the new home. Of the bravery to go for something big and getting it.
What is the feeling of the flying over the world? That is the grandest thing. It is the feeling of chasing a dream so hard that it comes true. It is keeping the promise to that little kid when you said I know your dream and I will make it come true. It is keeping that promise. It is knowing that I have my own back and I will do the things that make me happy because I put me first.
I spent New Years Eve in a very odd place. Questioning everything, and realizing the only person who can make this happen is me. I have the desire, the dream, and the capability to make them come true. I have manifested in an odd sort of way and watched every single thing that happened come true. But because I questioned if I deserved the things I was focusing on. So the universe showed me that yes it does work. I saw them for myself. The smallest things that there was no way someone could guess I set for myself. All of them every single one of them came to pass.
It is time to stop dipping my toes in the water and hoping the water is warm. No it is time to jump off the cliff and not give a damn about the water, because the universe wants to give me the longing of my heart, I just have to stop getting in its way. I have to stop settling for what seems to be the closest thing, and go for it all.
Thus, I am going to take the idea and put it to the test. A good old scientific research and test. What happens if you concentrate on the feelings of what you are trying to manifest, and let go of the surface and materialistic aspect of manifesting? Will that open a whole new world for you? Because you went deeper than what appears on the outside and began to really fulfill the needs of your innermost self?
Wish me luck in this experiment. I am giving myself a year. I am just days away from completing the staying single for a year. Now is the time to do something that has never been done. It is time to put myself first.
What about you? Have you ever tried to manifest something? Was it the item itself? Or was it a feeling? How did it come to you or did it even? I need data to understand exactly what manifesting looks like to others. I need the results to verify did you get exactly what you wanted or was it close enough? I look forward to this year, it will be very different.
-Dee
The Journey of a Lioness 