HELLO! I’m Back!

Wow it has been a while now hasn’t it? I guess that is what happens when you write a book! What? Yup you read that right. I finally just broke down and chased my dream and wrote a book. I am painfully waiting on the copyright to be approved so that I can officially do a release. It has been so hard to keep it all secret but I am close to being able to share it with you all. I want to thank everyone that has read and follows my blog. It has been your simple words of encouragement that has given me courage to follow this dream. I have missed writing on here and I am happy to be back at it. I pray and hope that you all have done well during the pandemic. Thankfully our prayers have been heard and we have stayed healthy, and a vaccine has been released.

Other than the book, my life has been amazing and I cannot wait to share what has been going on. I am so excited to report that Matt and I are still very happily together and are engaged to be married! What? I know it seems like not that long ago life was kicking my ass. Yet here I am saying I’m not going down yet. It is a good feeling to know that I have had a very tragic thing happen to me and I have found the strength to find my way from out of the trench back into life.

I am now starting to work on what my second book will be about. I can’t believe that I have not only wrote one book but I am on to the second one already. I have lots of ideas and thoughts, it is just getting them all spread out and sort through them to find the direction I should go. It is a lot but it feels good to have a purpose and to follow my passion. I am finally doing what I love and it makes me feel complete. I may never sell a single book or become a NYT Bestseller, but I am doing what makes me happy and in life that is what we need to focus on. What I have really learned in the past few months is that. I can still work at a job that I enjoy and get paid very well to do. And do what I love to do, write. It doesn’t have to be either or, it can be both. Yes writing the book took hours and it isn’t even very long, but it felt like I was alive while writing it. I went to bed tired and worn completely out but it was worth the going to bed late and waking up early.

I hope you all are doing well. My journey through my grief is always an ongoing one. Yet I have learned that even on the hardest days I am truly blessed. I was loved by an incredible man, and I had a wonderful life with him. Yet after completing my book I feel like I can really move forward and have found life again. Yes Matt is a part of that, but just a part. My kids are another part of that, and they are doing okay. We still struggle and I hate to say that in closing in on our second year we have had some big struggles. COVID has played a big hand in that. In school out of school and then back in. We all talk about returning back to normal, yet as most people who have dealt with a loss, we know normal is just a setting on the dryer. Yet in the end I don’t think I want to ever live a normal life again. I have learned that our time here is so precious and what I thought was the top of the mountain was really just a rest stop. I was knocked down from that and found myself in the trench but I am climbing out and my sights are set at the top of the mountain. Funny how you can only see the top when you are at the bottom.

Yet now that I know where the top is and my purpose and have a plan on how to get to the top, it is time to begin the climb. I welcome you all to join in. We will have slips and close calls and ropes that break and we may never see the top or maybe we get to only be at the top for a split second, but the point isn’t really reaching the top. It is all about the climb. Welcome to the next journey in this Lioness’s life. It is time to climb.

Dee