UPDATE…..

I know one of my last entries was about Mat and his accident. I wanted to take the time to let you all know he is doing great. Almost a full recovery. He will have a few things to get used to now. As of right now he is blind in one eye. It drives him crazy. We are praying the vision comes back but we are just not sure. There are no real answers for that. I know it makes him aggravated because before the accident he had perfect vision. For me the loss of some sight is something I can quite live with. He on the other hand struggles with it. For an eye is nothing compared to what they said I had lost. Him. I was warned that his personality would be different. That he would need a lot of care. It truly felt like they were telling me our lives would be completely different. They were wrong. Yes some things are different, but nothing like I was warned about. He is truly a miracle.

Life has changed once again for me. It is nothing like I thought it would be just five years ago. Five years ago I thought my life would be full of grandkids, sitting at home and enjoying retirement with my husband. Now I am a widow and with an amazing man who is now a miracle. And I am now in the middle of writing my second book. I only dreamed of writing one, and here I am on number two. I have gotten to a place where I usually get to while writing. The hard part, the part where every writer gets. The where is it going? The first book was tough in this stage but I am really glad that I pushed through and got it done. I have to do the same with this one. It is not that the story stops how can it? It is about the first seven days that Mat was in the hospital. The story ends happily, so it’s not like I have writers block. I just am to the point where I want to make sure it makes the point that I want it to. It is where self doubt happens. That point where I ask, is this really good. Does anyone really care? Then the big question, will this make a difference in someone’s life. That is the big one for me. I want people who read the book to come away with something. Not just a good story but to come away with something that means something to the reader. For them to walk away from the book with something that they carry with them and when they talk to someone about what is going on in their life, they say I just read this book, and it gave me hope.

Maybe I am putting too much pressure on myself too. Yet I think as a writer that is my biggest goal. To write something that made a difference in someone’s life. That is the goal. The first book only sold about 40 books I was shooting for at least 100. But I also know it is not the kind of book that people set out to read. Yet I know that it really is a good book, and those that needed to read it did and will. The next one will maybe have a few more readers but not many more. Yet in the end one thing is true. I am a published author and that is my dream and it came true.

Dee